Seems like everyone is getting married or having kids now and I'm not even close to doing either. I don't even know what I'm going to do when I get out of college yet, let alone what I'm doing next week. Greenville's selection of eligible men has not turned out to be the greatest so far, not that I even have time to look as it is. My love life is currently non existent and quite frankly I dunno if I'll find someone that I truley love and want to be with for the rest of my life any time soon. I've made impulsive decisions when it comes to men before but reality is starting to hit me. I'm 22 years old, one semester away from graduating, I can barely afford having my dog, there's no way in hell I could afford being married or having a kid right now. Most of the guys I've talked to lately have just dissappointed me, I've come to find that the only person you can truly count on is yourself. I'm not ready for marriage or children. I don't even know if I'm ready to be in love with someone. I don't think love is something that should be taken lightly, and when I say it, I'm damn sure going to mean it. And one of the most important things I have learned growing up is that you have to love yourself before you can be in love with someone else. I still have things to work on myself, things I want to accomplish. Maybe Mr. Right will come along some day, but for now I need to focus on myself, because I have cared way too much what other people have thought about me for way too long. As much as I hate to admit it, I'm starting to move on because I'm starting to realize that life goes on.
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